January 2012
Even if it looks like I’m happy on the outside, I’m actually broken deep down inside. I’m hurt. I’m crushed. I’m dying. I’m on the verge of crying or falling apart at any moment. I always bottle up my emotions because I know that no one will ever understand me anyways. That’s why whenever someone asks how I’m feeling, I just lie and say that I’m fine.
We get mad/upset over the smallest reasons. We assume the worst possible result and overreact. We get jealous when we see you talking to other girls that appear to be better. We argue and fight with you to see if you actually care enough to fix it. We say things we don’t really mean. It’s not that we’re trying to be hard to figure out, we just want to see if you can prove to us that you’re different from the rest.
I don’t want one of those short, sloppy one-arm hugs from you. I actually want a long, meaningful one; wrap your arms around me and hold me really close to you. Hug me tight and don’t let go. Make me feel secure while I’m in your arms. I love feeling like someone actually cares for once when they give me a nice, perfect hug. Trust me, it will truly make me happy.
Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. You’re jealous of someone else? You wish you could be, act, and especially look like them? It’s better to not feel that way. You should be satisfied for who you are right now, because only you can define yourself and be your own unique person. But guess what? While you’re envying someone you highly look up to, another person is probably doing the same thing with you. That’s how special you are, you just don’t believe it.
No matter how hard I try, it just won’t work. I don’t think it’s possible to completely erase someone that brought me so much happiness. All of the laughter, the smiles, the joking around. You taught me how to be truly happy; I just can’t let go of all of those memories we’ve made together that easily. You were too important to me, and no one else will ever be able to replace you.
Win her heart over. Don’t give up on her and leave like the rest has done to her. She really likes you, and you’re basically all she has left. Even though she’s still not completely sure about her feelings for you, she seems happier around you. It’s obvious that you’re the one that can make her laugh and smile a way no one else can. No matter what happens, don’t stop caring about her. She’s definitely worth it.
I’m always the one that constantly gets hated on, assumed about, and talked shit about for no reason. It’s just not fair to me, especially when those people don’t even know who I am; the real me. They don’t know what things are like from my perspective. They don’t know the things…